A Heartbreaking but Happy Moment, For Which I Was Waiting For

May 6th 2012...

Heartbreaking but Happy ??!!!!!
Yeah... read this whole story... if you can.. :) :) and I am sure at the end you would be able to know, how that particular moment was heartbreaking as well as happy....

A page from his diary...Safar-The Journey

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May 5th 2012

He was making himself strong; making himself emotionally prepared for the next moment, for that cruel moment, he was aware of, that some day it has to happen. He was thinking, how life could be so unmerciful and cruel to him, why it happens... why ???

'Soniyaa dil Todnaa Hi Tha, to Bataa Dil Kyu Lagaaya..." 

A track from movie 'Will You Marry Me' was being played on his HP laptop, giving a background music effect and adding some more to that heartbreaking moment.

He knew that, it was not going to be easy for him. 

He said, “I wish if I could ever tell… or dedicate this track…” -

" Tere naam ka kalma padhta hoon Aagoshey lub tujhe rakhta hoon..

Chalti saansein ruk jaati hai Jab yaad teri mujhe aati hai...”
Another track, from same movie that has changed automatically after the previous one.

Defiantly he was going to miss all those beautiful moments they had spent together. I could understand it easily. The way they used to spent whole day together, reading novels, watching movies, listening music and sharing their dreams during night. Ohhh!! No one could return those beautiful moments. He never wanted it to be repeated too, as he wanted it to be unique in his life... 

I asked him -WHY?

He was about to say something, he uttered something but he couldn't... finally he just pointed out to his laptop once again. I couldn't understand, some instrumental track was being played. I looked at him, as if I was asking WHAT?? 

Suddenly I heard Shafaqat Amanat Ali Khan’s voice; I turned at it and found it was coming from that stupid HP. Ooopppss!!!  Did I call it stupid?? Please don’t tell him, that I did so, or else he will kill me. I am sharing a secret that HP is very close to him… so please haa...

Well, I understood what he wanted to say when I heard it…

“Lafzon se jo tha pare...Khaalipan ko jo bhare

Kuchh to tha tere mere darmiyaan…

Benaam rishta woh, bechain karta jo

Ho naa sake jo bayaan, darmiyaan…

Darmiyaan Darmiyan...Darmeyaan Darmeyan

Kuchh tto tha tere-mere darmiyaan…”

This track from movie “Jodi Breakers” was being played, and it’s really a touching track. The situation was getting filmy and over reacting like those TV serials and at the same time these songs were making the scene more dramatic. I just turned off the music. He looked at me with a mixed expression of confusion and pain. Well, please don’t think that I was being harsh for him. I could easily understand his pain, but wanted to help him. 

Ohh!! I forgot to tell about them, how they met and why they were so close… how stupid am I !!!

They had met a just a week ago when he had met with an accident. And due to that accident they had met… It’s not that they hadn’t met earlier. It was also not that they were not going to meet never again. They had met earlier but were never so close, as this time, together almost every time. They had to meet again but again they were not going to be that close as a lot of other things were going to be between both of them.  After a care of one week, finally he was able to sit and walk now...  After all, he has to say good bye to those moments they had spent together… Ohhh!! He was behaving like he was in love with those moments. He said to me, “buddy, just wish it to never happen again. It’s really paining, please help me… I want to get rid of it. 

Wait, GET RID OF IT?? 

Well, lets make this suspense over... So who... better if I say,  what was it ??
It was his his bed... with all those novels scattered here and there... where he was enjoying   care of  his maa..paa..bro.. frnds... on which he was since his accident; he was saying good bye to. :) :) :) ....  well its  good isn't it.....

And he was wishing those moments never be back. Well who will wish so... but at the same time he was thankful to all those moments he had spent with his family and friends...talking to them... arguing on funny topics... chit-chat... enjoying comments from his bro(who was reading his personal mails and msg. on his behalf)...

Well, those songs ??? I don’t know for what they were; I think he was just creating a humor for himself to have a smile on my confusing expressions. Yeah, it’s his habit. Somehow he always manages to laugh even in the situations, no one could…

Well, he is fine now… after a long break of one week… he is back … just want to say thanks a lot to all of you for your wishes…  

I hope you know, about whom I am talking about… do you?? Really??  

Well then, I want to say something to you on his behalf… for all your care and wishes..

ऐ काश होता कोई ओहदा खुदा से बढकर...
ए दोस्त, उस पर तेरा हम नाम छोड़ जाते...
ग़ज़ल जो कोई होती, महफ़िल-ए-वफ़ा की..

हर हर्फ़ में, तेरी ख़ातिर, सलाम छोड़ जाते...

- Alok Kumar Upadhayay...
for all of you...

Special thanks to Mr. Umesh Kumar and Mr. Sanjeev, who saved me on that day and waited till the time my parents were there...  People like them really make me feel that even in this busy world, there are people who think about others... I was on that accident scene in the middle of the road for 3-5 minutes.. but it was a dreadful experience... will discuss about it later...

So... what do you say about this heartbreaking… I mean….. This moment … :) :) :) :) 


- Alok Kumar Upadhayay